Friday, December 19, 2008

Sorry... I know I'm not doing a good job...

"Hey Stephen" - Taylor Swift



Ok. I have excuses for why I haven't been posting in a while. This past week was finals and cheerleading has been eating up my time. We've been preparing for competition in January. So that's why I've been sketchy on posting.



There are some fun things happening soon. For my birthday my friends and I are heading up to McCloud, CA to stay at a cabin. It's not too far away from Trinidad, so I get to stop over there to do massive research for my book THE FLAWED UTOPIA.



Also, I've started a new book called Awake about a girl who wakes up from a coma with none of her memories and her best friend who happens to like her has to help her get her memory back. In the end she ends up forgiving people and moving on from the bad things she's done.



Anyway, I'm also working on the flawed utopia again and i have this cool new begining:



What would life be like if we lived in a snow globe?

A perfect sphere where our painted smiles are all we know.

Where repeated powder rises and falls all around us; where we never have to feel anything, again.

Where we could always keep our composure and never cry.

What would life be like if we lived in a snow globe?

Cold.





Saturday, November 22, 2008

My Review of the Twilight Movie

"American Boy" - Estelle feat. Kanye West

Yes people, I went to the midnight showing of twilight, like half of the population of the US did. I am seeing it on Sunday to see what I missed with all the squealing.. haha

My Review:

The best part of the movie was the 30 minutes of Jacob/Taylor Laughtner. I love how he just smiled everytime he came onto the screen. I mean, he was just the happy camper the real Jacob is :]

Edward kind of bugged me though. It kind of looked like he had one eye bigger then the other, like he was having spasms or something. He talked in a monotone voice and that didn't help with his creepy-stalker lines. He also looked like he was going to barf in the Biology scene, which was kind of hilarious. And damn he looked hot in the Port Angeles scene.

I didn't like Bella as much as I thought I would. She kind of made her more boy-crazy-over-edward then she was in the book.

James was amazing, but I wanted the fight to last longer. I likes Alice ripping off his head though.

Jasper had about 3 lines, but they were all sexy. The rest of the movie he looked like he was going to pee his pants.

Emmet was genius. I love him riding arround on the roofs of cars.

All in all I give it a 3/4.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Ok, I know I haven't posted lately...

"The City is At War" - Cobra Starship

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Damn Friggin Jacob Haters.

If you can't read it it says:

Bella: Hi Edward

Edward: Good morning my bright meteor! Ligot of my eyes, my litle cute lamb, joy of my existence, my warm juliet, my soul, my heart, my all...

Bella: I understand Edward

Edward: Err... my apologies dear! How are you today?

Bella: Finally... I'm fine, thanks

[bella in a sad place]

Bella: after that emmett ate my little mr. nibbles I was so sad and desperate...

[dog appears]

Bella: But now I'm happy because I took a dog! Look at him! He's so cute!

Edward: Without Words...

Bella: I saw him in the forks dog pound and I totally fell in love with him! But i still didn't find a suitable name for him...

[dog bite's edwards leg]

Dog: GRRRR

Edward: Call him Jacob

[bella scowls]

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So. I haven't posted in a while, so I will try to make this one long.

Cheerleading season is almost over. last night my team got creamed by Monety 45 to 7. But we upstaged the other cheerleaders and are now preparing for Competition and basketball season.

Book is going well. I've cemented myself to one 1st chapter where it bounces back and forth between Jason and Phoebe's POV.

I have 4 possibilities for a boyfriend. Well, 4 that I like and two people who I don't like that like me. One of the two people who like me, I might ask one of them to my schools Turnabout Dance. The cheerleaders get to plan it, so I'm looking arround the internet for theme ideas.

I'm doing a very bad job of making this long...

So I will go type so that I have more to blog about later :]

Thursday, October 30, 2008

twilight video

new twilight video.

new footage.

can't type anymore. gotta run!

Friday, October 17, 2008

Chello All

"Time is Running Out" - Muse

As a writer, we find many ways to fufil our procrastination needs. My way is by a little thing called youtube.

I had heard rumours of a Chello version of Time is Running Out by Muse and me being a lover of both the band and classical music, went searching through pages and pages of videos. And what do I happen to stumble upon?

A clip from Gossip Girl. I click on it, not sure why that would be in a midst of Twilight central and I watch it. It's only a mater of 3 minutes long, but it had something to do with Blair talking to Serena. And what do I hear in the background?

It took me a minute to realize this, but as I listen closely to the music in the back I realize that it's the Chello version of Time is Running Out. Who would of thought that the fandom of twilight would reach the outstreached high-end hands clad in Gucci and Dior or Gossip Girl?

Twilight has truly taken over the world :]

On another note [no pun intended] due to my urge of procrastination, there is no book news other than that I am combinding two of my first chapters into one, working more on book 2 then I should be, and editing through book 1 when I attempt at trying to focus.

:]

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

A Writer's Shlump

"Chasing Cars" - Snow Patrol


There's something that I really like about this picture that I can't exactly describe. Maybe it's the Romeo-esk looking guy, the girl's really cool tiara, maybe the tutu, or maybe it's just the fact that the bike is Purple :]

Haha, yes I know. I'm random.

Today I have spent my day finishing my English teacher's insane hw assignments, sewing a poodle skirt for my homecomming this weekend, and thinking of ways to make my 1st chapter not sound like crap.

*Sniff

Ah, the life of a writer :]

Isn't it the writer that's supposed to like her fist chapter? It seems like everyone else seems satisfied with my first chapter except me. I've been going through my old manuscripts, looking at my other failed attempts. I can't help but love the one that worked the best.

Basically it's a near mirror copy to the first chapter of Twilight. I didn't mean it to be that way, it was basically how I would start it if it were a movie. It would start out with Phoebe being shoved onto the plane by her mother who lives in Montana, most of her dialog being her in protest of being sent to this god-forsaken town of Trinidad, CA. Then the oppening credits were the sketches in her sketchbook, the last one being the plane landing in California. Then she would find her dad in the airport, drive to Trinidad, and have her first day of school.

There was something so beautiful about the wording I used in this first chapter. Darn Stephenie Meyer, taking the good first chapter! [sorry, luv u steph!]

Another thing that annoys me is how my werewolf clan is introduced. It sounds so much like the way the Cullens are introduced.

But what other way would you be introduced to them on you first day other then asking the person who is sitting next to you and having them answer in a long lengthy description?

*Huff Huff Huff

So, this is where I am right now, in a shlump. A Writer's shlump.

A writer who is stugling to love her first chapter.

:]

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Cullen + Zoolander = LAUGHING OUT LOUD

"Addicted" - Saving Abel

The Cullens have followed Jessica's theory of being gay :] haha

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haha, this made my day.

1) because I could totally see this happening
2) just watch Emmet, hahahaha
and
3) Eddy-puss has gone mad

I don't really take the Cullens as people who drink starbucks. But this makes me giggle.

Onto Book Knews:

I've written about 16 pages of the first two chapters in Book One. I sent them off to my editor to ask her what she thought and I'm waiting for her response. I'll be typing for the rest of the day, so I'll let you know if I do anything super fantastic.

:]

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I've been Cullenized :]

"Don't Let Me Fall" - Lenka

Haha, I've been Cullenized with Bella. We're Vegitarians :]

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Ok, onto the post...

So, progess in my story is in construction. I'll be working on it for the rest of the day.

I'm also attending my old school's homecomming. It's 50's themed and I'm going in a turquoise poodle skirt. I'm really super excited...

I'm going with a group of my friends and I can't wait.

Back to my book:

So there's some things that I've realized about my book.

The whole previous Caleb/Phoebe relationship story actually works better. I think that just in my execution in my last 1st couple chapters. So I'm at it again, working on the first couple chapters. I've also lengthened the part where Phoebe gets taken by a couple vampires near the beginning. She ends up learning alot more about her "powers". She accidentally burns down a wherehouse which is soo cool. hehe :]

so that's all I've got for now. I'll post up later if I have anything good.

:]

Thursday, October 9, 2008

I take back everything good I ever said...

"Don't Stay" - Linkin Park

Ok, I take back everything good I ever said about Cassanova. He is an evil, perverted person who doesn't deserve Bella. Either he was trying to act like an ass or he'd really like that.

*Huff, Huff, Huff*

Bella: Steph? You ok?

Me: No, I'm pissed.

Bella: *slowly backs away into a dark corner

On a better note:

The twilight trailer came out and Edward is soooooooooooooo hot in it. YAYAYAY! Like I expected anything else :]

I'll post it up now.

Oh, and I have a picture in the midst of being Cullenized and I'm happy :]

Here's the video:



:]

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Ode to my dear obsession with Cassanova...

"The Resolution" - Jacks Maniquin

Ok, before I get into a long rant I have to say:
OMG! OMG! OMG! I love the preview for the new twilight trailer! HOTTIE EDWARD CULLEN!!!!!!

Ok, onto better news.

So I wasn't planning on posting anything about this matter, but I happened to be reading Bella's blog and she mentioned that I would probably explain the whole situation. So in her honor, I will post.

For the past couple weeks Bella and Cassanova have been emailing. This is a pair that I wish [and still think] should date.

A) because then they'd be the real life Peyton/Caleb

and

B) because even though people think that she's to good for him, I think that she and him would be good together. I mean, she obviously like[d] him and I think that whatever makes her happy is fine with me. [Unless of course it's some bloodsucking leech who I need to incinerate with my awesome Phoenix powers].

There is a reason that we call him "Cassanova". He is the typical high school player. The guy who's longest relationship has been 1 week [that's 5 days, not 7] and dates all the stupid blonde bimbos just so he can stare at her boobs and asks the tall girls to dances so when they slow dance his face will be in her chest [God, the guys need to get a life!].

Well, there's another side to Cassanova that only Bella sees. The sweet, romance movie/song lover who's actually very sweet and not perverted [most of the time]. The guy who has a band and writes songs, plays the guitar and could possible be a poetic artist.

That's the guy I want her to date. That's the kind of guy she deserves.

Now, in a way, this relates to my book as well. Since Cassanova is Caleb, it only makes since that it would be the same vice versa.

Well, as Bella and Cassanova were "emailing" he makes a pervy comment about "him only aloud to have sex at the girl's houses" which implies that he isn't a virgin. This scares the living crap out of Bella, who then emails me with her long rant about how she shouldn't like him and how she is apparently "done" [for now].

Well, as the author of The Flawed Utopia, I would've eventually gotten the comment of "Now he isn't anything like Caleb, because Caleb would never have sex before marriage".

*cough cough*

Caleb isn't a virgin. He never was as far as I planned and I just guessed that the real life Cassanova wasn't either. So now Bella's all mad at me because she doesn't understand why I still think that they should be together.

Here is why, just so she understands.

1) You can't judge a guy just because of his action[s]. He's a guy, they have different morals then girls do. That's why we don't have a name for Male {whores, sluts, etc.} because to them, it's ok to have sex before marriage and it means nothing. They're [this is very sexist] aloud to do it without being reprimanded. It's like a trophy to them, trying to see who can 'do' the most girls.

That's a horrible way of putting it, but that's the truth baby.

2) We do know that there is a softer side to him Belle. He still is the guy who likes romance movies and lovey-dovey songs. He's not always a perverted retard called "a man".

I have to go to bed now.

:]

Monday, October 6, 2008

A Break is Exactly What I Needed...

"I'll be Your Lover Too" - Robert Pattinson

*Yes, Robert Pattinson sings! The song is on my playlist :]

Ok everyone, today has been a good day. After a stressful weekend with my school's homecomming game [we won 26 to 14] which was played in the middle of a monsoon [it was raining super hard and cheerleaders aren't waterproof!] and my grandma's funeral on Saturday, I took all Sunday as a break [once I got my homework done of course].

That break gave me the time I needed to get over my writers block. With or without the oppinion of my trusty editor, I made some changes that she may or may not like. But to me, I think it makes more sense.

1. because I know the story and the characters alot better then she "techniqually" does
and
2. because I'm the author and what I say goes [even if I can't just make Phoebe a Nymph :] haha, luv you Bella]

Anyway. I've altered the town of Trinidad to be some "Upper Class Dior-Wearing Snob-Central" town where Phoebe is kind of the outsider. I've put the Crosses back into the high school, but they all have cover stories that say that they all have their own sets of parents [but not really, they're still just the Cross Coven].

I've added in a cute of lovey dovey date scenes with jason and phoebe and I've made Phoebe a 'less-depressed-emo-teenager" and more of a 'spunky-just-like-me-average-girl-teenager'.

While I've been wasting the days watching old episodes of Mew Mew Power [an anime I watched in Junior High] I've been thinking alot about my book.

Though this change might not stay final, I was thinking of changing Phoebe [again] from being a Nyrix, to just some kind of winged animal. I might just make her an angel again [like she was in the very, very, very, very beginning].

So yeah. That's basically the news right now. I'll post more tommorrow, but it's off to writing for now, because I don't want to loose my idea!

Here are some pictures of the different mansions for the characters:


Phoebe's Mansion [the one her grandma owns and the one her dad grew up in]



Peyton's Mansion [not exactly how Bella imagine's it, but the way I do]



Cross Mansion [imagine it a little newer without the red awnings, make them black]


Trent's House [the little separated thing on the left is Trent's room. It come important in book 2]

:]

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Imagination Movers

"Somewhere I Belong" - Linkin Park

So today I was watching Imagination Movers with my little 3-year-old sister, Hannah who likes to randomly dance in front of the TV. And as I'm trying to tune out the show I happen to peek up and watch bout 30 secounds of it. Apparently they were trying to catch a mouse and they had pots and pans in their hands to try to catch it with and I couldn't help but think of Peyton doing the same thing while trying not to squeal in fear.

So I kept on thinking of what each of the characters would do, but I only got so far as the girls:

Peyton: would squeal when she first saw it and give the pots to Phoebe

Phoebe: would be saying "ew" while tip-toeing arround the house trying to catch it with the pots in her hands

Katarina: would be 'hunting' it and when she'd see it she's pounce like a cat

Audrey: would set up 50 million mouse traps and wait for it to get caught in one

I couldn't help it, so I of course added this scene into one of my books. I'm debating whether or not it should be in book 1 or book 2.

So that's the odd book knews of the day.

:]

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Homecomming

"Knock, Knock" - Lenka

Okey Dokey. Today has been a productive day. I took a science test and did rather well on it [I don't know my grade yet, but I'm hoping it's good], I read over 100 pages of Love in the Time of Cholera for my english class and deduced that it is absolutely the most perverted book of all time. It's basic plot line is about this guy [Florentino] who basically has love affairs with married women while their husbands are away. And it definintly doesn't skip the graffic part.

In two words I can sum up the book "EW! GROSS!".

On a happier note:

Tommorrow I preform my cheerleading routine in the pep rally and we cheer at the game vs the Panthers. My dad went to that school so he's comming to the game in that teams colors, but my other family is comming in my schools colors :]

Also, Bella and my friend Haley are comming to, and maybe Deborah might be able to make it :]

Onto book knews:

Again, I have been neglecting to write more of it, even though I did find about two lines in L.I.T.T.O.C. [Love in the time of Cholera] that inspired me to write some lines in The Flawed Utopia [no, they aren't pervy. They're about how the one woman he loves, Fermina, has premonitions that he is watching her through his window, i.e. Phoebe having premonitions about Jason looking at her through her window].

I'll be typing up more soon. Also, I've updated my playlist and wasted about 2 hours on youtube looking at fanmade trailers for Twilight/New Moon/Eclipse/Breaking Dawn. Yes, I have no life, but oh well.

I have to go run a mile now [that's an odd way to end a post, but oh well]

:]

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Short Post today

"The Show" - Lenka

I updated the playlist, so check out the new songs near the bottom of the playlist.

No news today.

Here's a cool Breaking Dawn Video I Found

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1l71UXPtBng

it's a link, click on it :]

bye :]

Monday, September 29, 2008

Camping + Persuasion = sleeping under the stars and interesting dreams

Okey dokey. So this weekend was eventful.

On friday I cheered at my football game against the "dragons" (stupid mascot idea) and we won by 1 point. oh yes, me and the other cheerleaders were sooo happy we didn't have any overtime because I didn't want to stay any longer then I had to.
Also, I broke a nail [sounds stupid but it hurt really bad] and now I only have half a thumb nail. Yes, it still hurts :,[

On saturday I had to get up at the buttcrack of dawn to go to GS fall encampment [which is basically babysitting in the wilderness]. I was with Juniors all day teaching them how to cook with lots of tinfoil and how to make Armpit Fudge [don't ask]...

That night me and my troup slept under the stars [an extraviganza my troup has been trying to convince me to do for about 5 years]. So I finally agreed and had a very interesting dream.

In this dream I dreampt about 4 people:
1. Cassanova
2. Caleb
3. Jason [of course]
and
4. Ian [my main hottie from Full Moon]

In this dream Caleb and Cassanova were fighting over my BFF bella, and surprisingly enough, Cassanova was winning against a 6'10" werewolf. [i know, that's amazing right?]

Also, Jason and Ian were fighting over me, but in the end I ended up fainting or something, so they had to drive me to the hospital and there was a dragon and some fairies mixed in there [ok, i had a whole thing of whipped creme during the PA fridge raid, I think this dream can be explained by a sugar rush].

Anyway. On Sunday I got to go home and I took a really long shower. Well, somehow the shower dran got clogged so my mom went in to investigate. Well, she found I swear, the biggest hairball I've ever seen in my entire life come out of the drain. I mean, it was bigger then my chiuahuah and boston terrier/rat terrier put together. [yes, it was disgusting].

So those were the main events.

Book news now!

There's not much book news today, but I'm debating to put this backstory in about a Phoebe/Caleb love drama when they were in Junior High. I thought it was an intertaining way to start the book, so I'm toying arround with ideas.

So that's all for now. L8er!

:]

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Dreaming Cassanova

Borrowed Time - The Fine Frenzy


Tee Hee. This would be a shout out to my BFF/Editor, Bella.


"You and Cassinova forever!!!!! haha"

Ok, onto the post...


So, yesterday my mom went to my cheer practice and made a hecka-bunch of videos of our dance and stunts. so yeah, I'll give u links to the videos later :]


Book news:


There isn't a whole bunch today, but there still is some [which is always good].


Last night I dreamt about Caleb Vandom [as I have been for the last week-or-so] so, I might add in some more stuff for him [Bella, quit saying hurray!]. Also, I found someone who looks like Jason. It's this guy from 90210 [the CW one]. He's the hunky guy from the drama club who's in the play with Annie [or whatever her name is]. Mix him with Steven Strait and you've got Jason. Another good thing about him is that he has a good singing voice.

haha, Pretty Woman scene in my book :]


Another thing from the book is that I'm expanding the 20-25 pages of Russia to about 100 pages [yay] and I've been working on it. I'm thinking of puting it from Castor's POV, but I'm not sure. I have to go over it with Bella.


so, short post today. I'll end it with some pictures.
90210 Hottie :]

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Okey Dokey Artichokey!

"Faint" - Linkin Park


If you haven't noticed from my title, I'm really hyper. No, I didn't have a slurpie after cheer today [although that sounds really good right now]. But I had cake after dinner [you know, that really delicious chocolatey one :P].


Onto news for the day:


1. I went to school [I know, that's ground breaking news!!] and I went to my speech and debate team meeting at Lunch. It was a snooze-fest, so I'm probably quitting so I can be in the anime club :] . I'm weird, I know it :]


2. Cheer was an extra hour, which made me really tired. I got switched to base-ing and I hope I don't screw up my wrist during Homecomming half-time like I did in practice yesterday. Also, the other base in my group [her name is Jenna, but I call her carpet girl because she's got the personality of carpet]. Well, she ttly screwed everything up, so now Alexis is pissed off. Yay! Cheerleaders all PMSing. This is soooo fun :] (not).


3. I almost saw my first fight at public school. Haleigh Hoffman was going to beat up this girl Cassie on my cheer team because apparently she's talks bad about ppl [doubt it]. So I was all about to be mother hen on her, but then one of the P.E. teachers broke it up. {if he hadn't I would've gone to the office to report it}


4. I put my iPod on shuffle and I got to Sunglasses at Night by Corey Hart within the first 10 songs. That made me happy in Advocacy :]


Ok, I've drowned on enough about my actual life, onto book!


So, Bella, my trusty editor, convinced me out of changing the book to 3rd person limited knowlege, instead I'm doing 1st person [like planned] but I'm making the 1st chapter from Fee's grandma's POV.


Also, I don't feel the need to change chapter one! YAYAYAYAYAY hurray! Wahoo! Hurrah!!!! VICTORY IS MINE!!! hahahahahahaa!!!


Yes, I'm still hyper.


Also, Derek hasn't asked me to homecomming yet. [get a move on dude!]


I've g2g now, gotta run 1/2 a mile :]


bye :]


oh, and what do u think of this picture for my Brainwashed Perfection cover [this is aimed at bella]. Yeah, I know the make up is a little overdone, but I'm working with what I found.
:]

Monday, September 22, 2008

Ok... It's sunk in...

Coming Home by City and Colour

So, as some of you may know, my grandma died about a week ago. And it's actually sunk in that she's dead. Let's just say I was kinda crying at 1 in the morning last night :,[

Anyway, On a happier note:

I have completely planned out book one and the manuscript should be done soon. I figured out what was wrong with my book [and let me tell you, it was bugging me hella bad]. The thing that was bugging me was that there was a character who didn't have a voice. From the beginning I never really had a solid reason for Phoebe to move to Trinidad, and now I do. Her grandma, Clemence Posey, is 71 years old and dying; so her dad and her have to go care for her. Though her grandma is 71, she looks like she is 40 [*cough cough* she's a Nymph *cough cough*]. She's the reason that Phoebe is part Nymph (Nyrix - Phoenix = Nymph). Guys can't be Nymphs, so that's why her dad doesn't have any powers.

This decision also helped me solidify how Jason and Phoebe meet. Jason is required to do community service for him 'homeschooling' so he helps out Phoebe's grandma arround the house. Because of this, a very entertaining scene involving a nightmare, a thunderstorm, and Phoebe waking up sleeping on Jason, occurs. This is one of my favorite parts of the book because it's so awkward that you can feel the "uh...what's going on" jumping up from the page.

Also I forgot to add in more of today's new:

1) no, he hasn't asked me to homecomming [darn you!]
2) I hurt my wrist in cheerleading and am really pissed at some of the girls on the squad
3) the 3 hour premire of Heros is on tonight! [yeah! woo hoo! hurray! FINALLY!!]

Well, I g2g now :]

Oh, wait. also:

muhahahahahhaha! victory is mine! Cassanova and Bella are slowly [and this is on Bella's terms] becomming closer and maybe a couple! [in like 10 years when Bella actually figures out how to flirt with him and actually have him notice]....

haha, love u bella :]

(don't kill me)

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Author Overview

Headlock - Imogeon Heap

Okey Dokey. So, as you have probably noticed, I haven't posted in awhile. I haven't posted because of 2 reasons:

1) my grandmother died (as noted on my last post) so things have been pretty hectic arround the house.

and

2) because I got grounded for speaking to my mom in some apparently "disrespectful tone" and she took away my computer, tv, and cell phone for a week.

Now onto the post...


In my everyday life:

Well, Homecomming is comming up at MCHS and I might get asked by this guy Derek in my 4th period English class. It's a rumor that he's going to ask me, but I doubt he will. If he does, I'll make a long post with lots of OMGs and !!!!!s.

Also, yesterday was the first JV and Varsity game that my squad cheered at. We did fabulously and the football team lost both games (oh well. It's still our Casa, haha). But from that game I got a sunburn and plenty of blisters on my foot. Oh, and I realized that my uniform is not my size! So, things are going to blog-worthy soon.

Now onto my Author life:

I've decided to make an overview on the projects I am working on, just to kind of explain the story lines so that when I talk about the books, you'll understand a little more about what I'm talking about. (they aren't in a specific order)

Brainwashed Perfection: This is my newest side project. It's about the future world called "The New Earth" which has been brainwashed into a very vain, anti-religious world where beauty is the #1 thing you can have. The Delerium (the evil government brainwashing the people of earth) have divided the world into two social classes.

1) The Untouchables: This social class is 98% of the population. They are the people who aren't 'Perfect' and have to pay insanely high taxes to the Delerium just to see a person deemed "Perfect". About 8% of these people are in small rebellions scattered across the globe hoping to someday rid the New Earth of the Delerium and their evil ways.

2) The Perfects: This social class is 1% of the world's population. They are people who were at birth deemed to be Perfect in every aspect of their outwardly beauty. These Perfects are bound to a life where they must travel arround the world to collect the money from the Untouchables all while living to strict rules overseen by their caretakers and other minions (the caretakers and minions take up the last 1% of the world's population).

In the actual book, it's about one of the perfects named Alena [Ah-LEAN-UH] who is kidnapped by one of the rebel forces. While she travels with them, she begins to fall for their leader Darien [Duh-air-rEE-ehn]. While the rebels are planning to get rid of the Delerium's rule, Alena is trying to locate her birth parents, and find out more about her past.

I haven't gotten very far "document-wise" in this manuscript, but it's my most original idea, so I like it alot. But I haven't gotten a chance to work on it much.

Full Moon: This is the side project I started before BP (Brainwashed Perfection). It's about a girl nammed Violet who was one of the few dwindling humans in the world of Callaria. Callaria has been taken over by vampires and their masochist Prince named Cedric. As a way of servival, Violet became close with the prince, causing his icy heart to fall for her and vow to never turn her. But, when one of his advisor's find out that she is human, Cedric is forced to send the wolves after her, sending Violet running for the Winterlands [a vast snowy wasteland where few survive].

In her escape, Violet meets an odd pair, Simon and Ian. Ian [a super-fine 21-year-old] and Simon [a cute, blonde 6-year-old] are part of a rebelion who want to get rid of the vampires and free the remaining humans from bondage. Violet and Ian fall in love, but Violet doubts it would have happened if circumstances had been different. As she tries to hide her dark past, Ian starts to dig in more. When her secrets are let loose, thing begin to happen; things that decide the fate of Callaria.

This manuscript is also fun to work on because of Violet's back story. It's one of the best one's I've ever come up with and I'm really proud of it. But this one I also rarely work on due to other stories that are more important at the moment.

The Flawed Utopia: This is the book that I have finished and am now editing. It took me about 1 week to figure out the basic storyline, 1 night to think of characters [let's just say I had a dream about them :)], and about 3 months to type up the original 1st draft [which was soooooooooooooo horrible. It's morphed ALOT since then]. Since those three months I have spent about 6 months editing [yes, that is alot].

This is the basic idea for this novel.

Phoebe Stanton has never been normal. Cursed by an unknown power which alows her to see somewhat into the future and become an odd magnent to the other gender, she has been seeing wolves. But not just any wolves, werewolves. Unknowing of their human identity she beings to search, after moving across the country to live with her odd grandmother and her artistic father in the small town of Trinidad, California [Trinidad is a real place, but mine isn't based off of that one].

In Trinidad, she meets Jason Cross, one of the many Foreign exchange students living in the Cross Mansion [which is hidden in the woods]. She doesn't like him, at first. He questions her very way of life because he doesn't react to her like other men do. Unable to ignore him, she begins to fall for him; then she discovers his secret. The wolves and his mysterious family are one in the same. The Crosses are the werewolves.

Once their secret is known to her, things begin to happen, bad things at that. Evil beings begin to target her and she is put into grave danger, when a grudge made long ago arises from the past and could determine whether Phoebe remains alive.

This is my favorite novel to work on and it's the one I am typing up, talking about, or thinking about 99.9% of the time.The story and characters and everything about it is perfect and (me plus my family/friends) it thought to be bestseller material. This will be my debue novel and It's the reason this blog was started. It's a part of my everyday life and no doubt about it, this will be published.

This is one of 3 books in the Nyrix Series:

1. The Flawed Utopia
2. The Cracked Spyglass (or Looking Glass, haven't decided)
3. The Puppet Master

All of these novels are me. Each of the main characters are a part of me. Anything these characters would think or do, is me. And if any of them become movies, no one is aloud to play them but me. THEY ARE ME: LOOKS, BRAINS, EVERYTHING IS ME!

There's one other project that I am working on that's part of a 7 book series that I will most likely work on after The Flawed Utopia, but I'll rant about that on another day.

:]

Thursday, September 11, 2008

This will be short and not sweet

Ok. This is going to be a very short post.

Basically, as of 12:31 pm today, Thursday September 11th 2008. My grandma Kathy Evans died.

So yeah. After fighting a stroke and whatever was wrong with her lungs due to smoking, she's kicked the bucket.

So. short post. bye yall.

ps. no song this time...

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Victory is Mine. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

"I'm in the business of Misery," - Misery Business - Paramore

Ok, twilight news! yay!

So, victory is mine. RPattz fav twilight book is #2, the one where he's a total butnugget and dumps bella and Jacob is the new star :]

rob just earned my respect for the next billion years :P

also, he's signed on for all movies and he's starting to read breaking dawn.

Another exciting thing is happening in the twilight world. Paramore will be making a new song for the soundtrack. YAY! can't wait for that.


Now onto book news.

I am an absolute genius! I have figured out completely how to make my secound book longer. It means having a little switchero with the storyline of book one, well, basically I'm making the ending so sad that you'll cry the whole year you have to wait for book 2....

yes, i am a writing genius :]

also, i'm taking after my favorite person in the world (stephenie meyer). In my 3rd book i'm doing the middle of the book from someone else's POV. i can't say who because that will ruin the whole shock moment, and I'd like to see some youtube videos of ppls reactions :]

also, talking about youtube. Soon i will be posting up a Midnight Sun response online. Let's just say I think that twilighters have gone to far. 1 for demanding her to publish it and 2 for the people who leaked it.

I'll let yall know when it's posted and I'll give you a link. :]

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Twilight

"I will always reach too high cuz 've seen Twilight," - Twilight - Vanessa Carlton

So again, I'm having doubts about my book again. But what else is new. I was watching some interviews with Stephenie Meyer and she did her usual "what advice do you have for writers" shpeil.

Well there were some things she said:

"Don't write in the mindset of 'Will my publisher like it?', write for you because you're the most important reader."

and the other thing that she said was:

"People can relate more to human characters, the ones that don't have all the magical powers to add on to their hero/heroine-ness."

So now I'm having doubts about my main character Phoebe. She has magical powers of her own, the whole vision-meets-wings-meets-controlling-fire. So now I'm doubting that people are going to relate to my book because my main character had magical powers and they can't relate to that... and now i'm breaking her first commen of 'write for yourself and not others'.

Bella! HELP ME!
:]

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Love is Dead

"Love don't live here anymore, love is dead, love is gone," - Love is Dead - Kerli

Ok. So overnight I scrapped my idea of not publishing The Flawed Utopia. Yeah, I had a stupid moment last night. Let's just say I was really tired and a little loopy. But hey, if you're a writer you're kinda required to be loopy, especially if you're kinda-sorta in love with your character who's also a werewolf.

Yes, just a little bit loopy :]

So. I'm watching harry potter 4. First I say to keep it on because Daniel Radcliff is the hottest in this movie. Then when they go to the Quittich World Cup, Edward arrives (ok, he's cedric in this movie, but he'll always be Edward to me). And while I'm watching it my dad says in a girly voice trying to immitate Bella.
"I think this ammount of hottness will overwhelm Stephanie's brain."

hahahahahahahaha.

We laughed for a long time and then I was dissapointed when Edward has to leave. But he's comming back soon. :]


So I have come up with a new way for Phoebe to be kidnapped. My editor will like it, but as for the rest of you......

You can't know right now :]

Friday, September 5, 2008

Borrowed Time

"Step right over the line and onto borrowed time" - Borrowed Time - A Fine Frenzy

So, I've decided on a new way to start posts. I'm going to put up a string of lyrics of a song I'm listening to. Cool huh?

Ok. Onto the post.

Well, I've been thinking. [what else is new, I'm always thinking]. Well, I was skimming Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer (the leagal copy that is posted on her website stepheniemeyer.com) and I was realizing something about Edward. In twilight, he's very, well how can I put this nicely, boring. Most people who know me know that I'm a Jacob fan who doesn't mind Edward. Well Edward isn't boring throughout the whole thing. I mean, there are the cute thoughts he has when he's talking to bella [hidden things that we never knew about]. So it's not all bad. But it definintly isn't my favorite of all of the books. Mine is still Breaking Dawn [especially the Jacob POV part].

Another thing I've been thinking about is my style of writing. Earlier today my editor [and bff] Bella told me just how much my writing has morphed. Of course she's known me from the point where I would only use the speaking verbs said and asked. Yes, I've come a long way. And I've been thinking that the novel that I really want to publish is a more, personal story, something with more depth then The Flawed Utopia. I know this might sound crazy, to stop this book for the moment and focus alot on a different book, but I'd like to do something that couldn't be compared to Twilight. Bella, please don't shoot me :]

So yeah. That's what I've been thinking about. I'll post back later about whether this is really going to happen or not. Check you later :]

:]

Delerium

So... news... is there really any?



haha, duh, of course there is!



Ok, so in the twilight world:

1) Rob Pattz got attacked by a crazed fan [don't worry, he's ok]

2) Steph isn't writing a book about mermaids [poor bella :P]

3) Twilight Layouts has some new layouts for myspace



Ok, so in my book world:

1) The Library scene is under construction

2) Brainwashed Perfection is comming along nicely. It's about 5-7 pages. I'll post some up later.

3) No news about Full Moon.





Ok... I'm sick of numbering.



I've found some more pictures for my books... Enjoy :]


Book 2: The Cracked Lookingglass (or Spyglass, haven't decided)


Book 3: The Puppet Master

*Note: These aren't the actual covers. Just pictures I found that represent the book.

Also, listen to the song Wisdom by Delerium, good song. *Bella* think of book 2 Jason's POV

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Yay! I've achieved the impossible!

Ok, not really the impossible. But since my dad and my uncle abducted my iPod and put on a bunch of music, my once library of 300 something songs is not bumped up to 1355 songs. (exactly that ammount). So for the past week I have had my iPod on shuffle and I've finally listened to every single song! YAY!

Yes, I know, I have no life :]

Ok, onto better news.

So there's alot of twilight news. Twilight guy has updated his profile (yay) and there's a new entertainment weekly twilight cover (better then the last one). Tyra Banks has talked about twilight and says that it's going to take over the world :] (what twilighter hasn't said that). Um, what else was there. Oh, and twilight will be having a spread in an Austrailian Magazine. Also, taylor, kellen, and rob are in some magazine in fancy clothes :] (i only care about taylor, but i couldn't leave the others out).

Also, Kellen is on the new season of 90210 which I am Tivo-ing and I can't wait to watch it.


Onto book news!

So, as you all know, i like to distract myself while i'm editing, so i write side projects. well, these side projects normally appear in my dreams and entertain me while i'm listening to some boring rant one of my teachers are talking about.... so lately it had been "Brainwashed Perfection" and I've been writing alot of it down in a notebook. I haven't had a chance to type it up, but it's comming along nicely :]

The flawed Utopia is comming along nicely as well, so theres some good news there. Um, I'm still editing and I probably need to continue typing up the dinner scene, because Phoebe and Caleb haven't even had their confrontation yet.

So i've got some work to do! Oh, and I also have to read like 50 pages and annintate of Bless Me Ultima...

So of to work! Ovwah!

:]

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Yay! ROb News!

Ok twilighters. Robert Pattinson has two songs that will be featured in the movie (yay!) and he's also (as we all know) writing bella's lulaby. YAY!

onto important news :]

So today in my Advocacy and Hummanities Class I began to write down some of Brainwashed Perfection and I've got the basic storyline for book 1 done. So here it is:

* = a most likely spelling error

In the future a "New Earth" has been formed by a dictatorship called the Delerium*. They are perfectionists and force the people of earth to conform to their masochistic* ways. Alena was born into the Delerium* and was deemed to be one of the few Perfects [a human who is the model behind what the Untouchables (non-perfect humans) must strive to be]. As a part of the Perfect's job, she must travel from town to town where people will pay just to see her face. This is something Alena wishes she wouldn't have to do.
On one certian trip, her car is intercepted by a renegade human society who kidnaps Alena and takes her to their secret underground base. There she is conformed to one of the renegades and chooses to fight against the Delerium* and bring the world back to the way it's meant to be. All the while she begins to fall for the renegade's leader, Darien, even though it goes against her brainwashed beliefs about the 'Untouchables'.


So yeah, I'm going to be typing up part of the story today and I'll post some up after I send it to my editor.

Oh, and progress on The Flawed Utopia is going well. I've got alot of stuff left to type up though.

:]

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Continuation (finishing that dream)

Sry everyone, I know that I stopped in the middle of the best part, so here it is, continued:

I grabbed the box quickly from Peyton's hand and tore it open, taking out that weird little stick thing that you're supposed to pee on. Peyton shut the door to give me some privacy and I did what I needed to. I sat on the counter and waited for the results. It felt like I was waiting for some book to come out and I was standing in a line at 11 o'clock pm, thinking that every minute went by slowly until midnight when the book would finally be in my hands.
Then, it came.
I nearly fell off of the counter, but instead I screamed inwardly. I didn't want to worry Jason that I had cut myself or something, or maybe have Peyton think there was a spider on the wall and have to run and get a broom and Caleb. I walked out of the bathroom like a zombie, pale white with glazed over eyes. Peyton tore the pee-stick from my hand and gasped. Jason just stood in the corner, frozen solid and becoming just as pale as I was. Leaning against the wall, I slid down into a curled position on the floor and bowed my head, resting it against my knees. My hands were placed on my stomach and I tried to breathe without bursting into tears.
On that cursed little stick appeared a little devil called a +.
Jason walked over to Peyton's side, took one glance at the stick, and took my curled up body into his carring hands, and just held me close to him. We were both curled up together on the floor, leanning against the wall, while Peyton still stood there, holding the stick in her shaking hand. Finally, after 987 secounds of torchuring silence, Peyton walked into the bathroom, threw the stick away, and walked out of my bedroom.

The next couple days were silent. Even Katarina didn't say a word to me or anyone. Everyone spoke in a whisper, but abruptly were silent whenever Jason or I walked into the room, both in our zombie state. The one person who did actually speak, was Caleb. But he didn't speak to me, he spoke to Jason. It was dinner on the 4th day of silence that he broke.
"What the hell were you thinking Jason!" Caleb exclaimed. "You knew that it was possible for our kind to have kids. If it wasn't, I wouldn't be here! Why didn't you protect Phoebe from something like this?"
I flushed red and Jason, already in his 'I'm going to blame myself for this whole thing' state of mind, bowed his head.
"They used a condom stupid," Ethan translated from my inward thoughts.
I knew he hated speaking for me, but I couldn't find my voice. I stood up from the table and walked upstairs. I heard footsteps following me, and I assumed that it was Jason. I walked into our bedroom and into the bathroom.
"Take it again," came Peyton's voice as she handed me another box.
I sighed.
"Would it make any difference. I'm pregnant," I whispered.
"You might not be. It could have just been a food baby. When someone is pregnant, they're really emotional, and you, well, you're just a zombie; that's not normal," Peyton explained.
I looked at her, and grabbed the box. I took the test again and walked back into the bedroom to wait with Peyton. Finally, to my surprise, the test came back negative. It felt like a million pounds had been lifted off of my shoulder. This time, I did actually scream, but out of joy. Peyton smiled and everyone ran upstairs. Jason was the first through the door.
"What is it? What's wrong?" Jason exclaimed.
I was crying and laughing at the same time.
"Why are you crying?" Jason asked in a worried tone.
I showed him the stick, the beautiful blue - sign on the little screen. Jason's color returned to his face and he smiled at me. He hugged me, so much harder then he ever had before. We were both so relieved, so happy that I wasn't pregnant, that we weren't parents, yet.
The others came in and Peyton told them the good news. That night was a night of celebration and relief. Well, the other's celebrated; Jason and I just stayed in our room. Jason was still holding me and we were both breathing, still exhaling relief, waiting for every emotion to just mellow out. We fell asleep like that, and by morning we were both back to normal (well, as normal as we could get).


Ok, so that's the story. Hope you enjoyed it :]

Ugh. I Hate Garage Sales.

Sry I haven't been on since two days ago. I've been helping my mom with this garage sale which was soooooo boring. Those poor people who bought all of our junk, they're not going to get much use out of it :]

Oh, and I lost my cell phone like 6 months ago, so I bought a new one, right. Well my mom just found my old one, how weird is that!

Anyway, onto the things that you may or may not care about.

Alot of stuff had happened over the last 3 days.

1)Stephenie Meyer is all pissed off at the people who leaked Midnight Sun on the internet and has posted 200+ pages on her website. I have to say in my own oppinion, that Edward's POV on twilight is a little bit of a snoozer.

2)I sent my 1st 3 chapters off to my editor and i'm waiting for her response.

3)I saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 and loved it.

4)I'm switching bedrooms with the office.

5)I'm still editing Flawed and don't know when I'll be done.

and finally,

6)I had a dream about Jason.

So the dream went something like this. (just to let you know, I'm Phoebe in both real life and in the dream).

Also, i'm typing this up as if it were in the book, and I'm not sure whether or not i want to actually put it in the book. Maybe book 3.


Enjoy:

Jason hugged me closely as we laid on the sand, letting the sun warm my back. It felt so welcoming, just lying there in his arms; the feeling only assured me even more that I belonged there, in those arms. The loud roar of Jason's heart in my ear was soothing, a sound that I could never get over, because that only continued to convince me that he was alive, as the both of us have had both our fare shares of near-death experiences.
My thoughts drifted to that of the previous night, and my heart accelerated insanely fast. We had meshed so perfectly together, like two puzzle pieces meant to be connected.
"You ok Fee? You're heart spead up," Jason asked, staring at me with those wonderful blue eyes.
I nodded and smiled. Jason caressed my cheek with his soft fingers.
"I love you," I whispered as I kissed him lightly.
"I love you too," Jason smiled once we broke apart.
[Fast forward a few weeks]
Life in the Cross house had become normal with nothing threatening our lives anymore. The more I lived there, the more I began to miss my house with my family. It was weird, not hearing my little sister running arround the house, or the sounds of renevations on something inside that house, whether it be the floor or the roof. Audrey and Damian still hadn't come back from their trip to another coven in Canada, and Peyton and Caleb were oddly quiet lately.
Jason spent the majority of his time with me. We cuddled alot, mostly because he knew I liked to. I still hadn't convinced him yet, to change me that is, even though we were already married. That was a matter that I always wanted to talk about, and Jason always tried to avoid it.
Tonight was different though. Most of the Crosses had gone out to hunt for afflicted creatures, but Peyton and I remained in the big house. She and I were hanging out in her and Caleb's room while she turned their bathroom upside down in search for something.
"Ugh! Why can't I find any!?" Peyton exclaimed.
"What are you looking for?" I asked.
"Tampons, I started my period today," Peyton explained.
"Oh," I replied.
My thoughts drifted to my own monthly schedule. As I counted back the days since my last cycle, I realized something; I was a week and a half late. That wasn't normal for me. I had always been on time, every time; it would start at 9:00am and ended at 9:00pm on the 3rd day. Then my thoughts once more drifted back to that night.
"Crap!" I exclaimed, almost missing a heart beat as I had put two and two together.
"What?" Peyton asked.
"I'm a week and a half late," I replied. "And, Jason and I - er."
"No! You did? Really?" Peyton exclaimed.
I nodded when she poked her head out of the bathroom door.
"Then, oh no. You can't be!" Peyton exclaimed.
"I might be!" I said, probably turning an off shade of white.
"Pregnant? Wow," Peyton murmured.
I gulped.
"And it's not like we can take a test for it. You have to wait 2 weeks," Peyton whispered.
I pulled out my phone from my pocket and speed dialed Jason.
"Hey, you've reached Jason. I'm not here right now, so leave a message and I'll get back to you soon," his machine said into the phone.
I hung up the phone before the beep came.
"I can't tell him," I whispered. "I can't be, pregnant."
"Well, we won't know for 3 more days," Peyton replied.
I gulped.
3 days?!?! I can't wait that long!
[3 days later]
The rest of the family had returned from the trip and Jason had somehow forced the news out of me. He had turned pale, just as I had, and today was judgement day. I was pacing in the bathroom, waiting for peyton to return from the store. As I waited, I heard Jason pacing inside the bedroom. He too, was nervous about what was going to come from this. Suddenly Peyton came galivanting through the door with the little box of hope in her hands.




Ok, sorry to interupt at this good part, but I have to go. I'll post the rest up later.

:]

P.S. Bella, I know what your thinking, but the outcome isn't what you think it is.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

LEX hacked...again

So, as a bunch of you twilighters have probably heard by now, the Lexicon was down for 48 hours due to hackers. This is my response to the people who are doing this:

1st - Why the heck are you hacking into the Lex?

It's not like they're some huge company with a bunch of money or something like that. Their a twilight news database that gives us news. Duh. And hacking into them just shows how much of a life you don't have.

2nd - Suspisions are aiming towards Breaking Dawn Haters...

Um. Hacking into the Lex isn't going to change Breaking Dawn. It ended the way that Stephenie Meyer planned it and hacking into one of the twilight sites isn't going to change that. Take your anger out on a pillow or something, the Lex doesn't deserve this!

3rd - Other Suspicions are aiming towards Lex Haters....

What's with the Lex hate people? The give us knews on Twilight? What's to hate? The font? The Header. Oh my god. You people have no life! Why are you hacking into the Twilight Lexicon?! It's so stupid and pointless. YOU PEOPLE NEED TO GET A LIFE!

4th - This is the secound time the lexicon has gotten hacked...

I don't know whether these people are the same ones that hacked into the lexicon before, and I just want to say to all the people who are taking out their frustrations with Breaking Dawn or anything else that could be fueling this stupid, pointless attempt at looking cool (because you look so cool when you can have a conversation along the lines of "I make 12 baskets in the one on one game today" ... "Oh yeah, well I hacked into the twilght lexicon". ) Oh yeah, you all exude in coolness now.

[in case you haven't caught on yet, i'm being sarcastic]

So to all you people who have no life and are frustrated and want take it out on the lex, well, put a sign on a pillow that says "Twilight Lexicon" and punch it for awhile, because you'd look a lot less stupid...

Rant done :]
Comment Please :]

Ok, so I have no life...

Well, what writer does have a life? I mean we're all a bunch of anti-social people who sit on the computer all day and type :]


I mean, Microsoft Word is out BFF!


haha


ok, onto the actual post....


So today was a good day, both writing wise and regular wise.


Regular Wise:


I may have had all of my boring classes today, but in Advocacy (aka Homeroom) this girl I sit next to was reading Breaking Dawn (aka, BEST BOOK EVER!) and I was all like "didn't you say u hated those books, like, last week?"


"Well, I ended up picking up a copy of the first one over the weekend and i couldn't stop reading it. So, now I'm just continuing to read." was her answer.


So i'm happy to say that the twilight community has a new fan :]


onto the more important thing....

Book Wise:


a) I wrote out the swimming scene and am prepared to write the Caleb-meets-Jason-meets-Phoebe love triangle scene (yay! Drama!) and I can also add in what Phoebe thinks is a first date and Jason doesn't really know what to call it because he doesn't know if Phoebe likes him too. (ah the sweet sent of teenage angst).


b) I thought of another book idea. It's going to be added to my Full Moon book, but the whole book is gonna be changed arround. Basically Violet will be renammed and the world she lives in will be changed.

Actually, scratch that, Full Moon will stay the same and i'll be typing a new sideproject called something along the lines of "Brainwashed Perfection". That title wil definintly be changing, but that's what i'll call it for now.

There will be more on that in later posts, but for now I'll be working on homework before my mother murders me :]


later fans!



oh, and here is a new picture.


This is CC's Chevy Impala:
(yes, it has dice :])


Wednesday, August 27, 2008

2...4...6...8 Cheerleading is really Great!

Hello everyone, I'm super hyper because I had a slurpie after cheerleading and it totally made me hyper. Also i've been in the sun for lie 2 and a half hours so i'm probably a little bit dehydrated and stuff.


Anyway, onto the post....


So today was a good day, i had english for about 2 hours and my teacher is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny. I am litterally laughing al class. But my school isn't what you people wanna hear about.


Onto Book News....


My book is comming along great and I've just finished typing up chapter four. It's going to be sent to editor tonight or early tommorrow, but it's comming along great. Also, my BFF (and editor) has a new blog and I want ya'll to check it out. She hasn't posted anything super fantastic yet, but she's getting there (give her a chance, she's knew to the worldwide web :)


But it'll be really great and you can get some of my book updates from her site too. But there won't be as much on there as there will be here. I'm gonna be posting up some new pictures and I'm going to be adding to the playlist, so keep and eye out for that.


I'm going to eventually put the link to my editor's blog on the sidebar, but for now it'll be posted here.


bellaraymond.blogspot.com


let me know in comments if it doesn't work. :)


thnx. luv u all!


here's some new pictures for the book:


I don't know the authors to these, so if it's your's comment me and i'll put your name by the picture. THNX!


Peyton and Caleb by Darcy (this was originally for twilight ie. Bella and edward):
Jason's McLaren:

Monday, August 25, 2008

Thanks to my great friend

Isabella "Bella" Raymond, I am no longer restarting my entire book. She always has a good way of convincing me that my story is good the way it is and she knows when to tell me that this idea is too much like twilight or this idea sucks. She tells me like it is, no fluff or any of that. She's the bomb and The Flawed Utopia would definintly suck without her.


Someday she'll make a great editor who gets paid (right now she's my free editor, haha).



Anyway... onto today's events.


I had to run the mile in Dance class and got 10:49 minutes. So, I'm happy. Also, I'm reading Bless Me Ultima by Rudolfo Anaya and it's so good. The scenery is so beautifully painted that it makes me want to go back through the Flawed Utopia and just describe the scenery like he does. I mean, he paints it so well that you can see the river, that you can see the llano (the plain). Everything is so vivid and beautiful.


I'm editing my bonfire scene right now. It's almost done and the whole Caleb fiasco is comming in soon. Can't wait to type that up!


Later!

-Stephanie

oh, and here's a funny chart i made of everyone's height.
you might not be able to read it but here's the measurements.
1. Jason 6ft 7in
2. Katarina 5ft 4in
3. Damian 6ft 11in
4. Ethan 6ft 6 in
5. Audrey 5ft 10in
6. Peyton 5ft 2 and a half inches
7. Caleb 6ft 9in
8. Phoebe 5ft 7in
9. Blake 6ft 6in
10. Aidan and Derek 6ft 10in


Sunday, August 24, 2008

Yola People

So. School's started for everyone now, so I won't be posting as much as I did (although I didn't really post much b4 haha). Well, progress on The Flawed Utopia is going great, so far the editing of chapters 1 through 3 are going well. I'm fixing up the bonfire scene and as everyone knows, i'm adding in that whole Caleb/Phoebe back story (which I have to say is pretty brilliant). I will post up only the new 1st chapter when it's done. I'm not putting the whole book online, because then what would be the point of publishing it. I will be posting more of my side project, Full Moon, and I'll be talking more about that soon.



Lots of stuff is happening in my life so don't get mad if I don't update my page regularly. I've got more important things than the blog. I've got cheer on mondays and wensdays til 5:30 and I've also got buttloads of homework, so I'm sorry if I don't get to everything I need too.



Oh, and the playlist in the sidebar is the songs I'm using for all 3 books. I've picked the titles I want for the trilogy:



Book 1: The Flawed Utopia



Book 2: The Cracked Spyglass




Book 3: The Puppet Master




Comment please. Tell me what you think of my rough ideas for the cover (aka, the pictures beneath the titles). They aren't my pictures, so they aren't the actual covers, but they're roughly what I want the covers to look like.



-Stephanie

Rewriting my first 3 chapters

so. since I have no life and don't want my book to be like any other book out there, I am rewriting my 1st 3 chapters to make it more my own than anything else. So today I have been adding in some scenes before her 1st day and I added in a whole backstory about Phoebe and Caleb that is bassed a little bit off of my own life.

Basically, Caleb was known as a Casinova (aka Player) since 6th grade up until he met Peyton. Well Phoebe kinda sorta had a crush on Caleb back then and he was a total butt to her and totally dissed her.

Well, you'll all read it once the book comes out. But it's pretty friggin fantastic.

Another odd thing that I am doing today is that my Uncle took over my iPod and put a bunch of Anime Theme Songs on there and I was surprised to find that I got both the Preatear theme and Sailor Moon season 5 Theme. I was so happy.

tee hee, i have no life.

that's all for now.

GAO!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Full Moon

This is another side project that I am working on. It's about a girl who can control part of the Fire Element. (She can control lightning)

She lives in the magical world of Callaria where it is separated into two species: The Vampires and The Human/Elementalists. The Vampires have taken over and now the Elementalists have formed a Rebellion to try and overthrow Prince Cedric (the evil Vampire prince/king).

Here's the first chapter. Tell me what you think. Keep in mind that it hasn't been edited through so there are probably spelling errors and grammar errors.

Enjoy :)



Full Moon
Stephanie Evans

In the time of night it comes, haunting those who are like me.
For one half of my body it makes me stronger,
For the other half, it makes me hungry.
I am cursed with a power that strengthens and weakens me everyday.
But I will not stop fighting until the war is over,
Even if I must die trying.









Chapter One: Found

The air of the night was a bitter cold as the things that roamed Callaria prowled through the night. I, Violet, ran through the snow covered forest, my ripped clothes fanning out around me. I was being pursued by a large wolf-like creature with blazing yellow eyes and teeth sharp as daggers.
Quickly, I ran through the river and suddenly I found that was caught by the current. The wolf watched me being swept away and gave up, turning around and heading back to its lair. I floated in the icy water, not bothering to fight the current.
I’m already dying. That thing, whatever it was, hurt me pretty bad.
I could feel the blood sifting out of my side, staining my already ruined clothes. The sound of falling water engulfed my ears and I was swept to a waterfall where I fell 40ft. I floated in the pond below, still amazed to be alive, and landed on the white snowy shore of the river. The full moon hung high in the sky, giving strength to the feared creatures of the forest. I could hear the echoing cries of the mouse-bats and the howls of wolves.
Breathing heavily, I rested my head on the cold ground and waited for my life to end. Closing my eyes, I prepared myself for death and soon enough entered the blackness.



I awoke to a rough kicking in my side.
“Do you think its dead?” asked a young boyish voice.
“Hush Simon,” said an older, manlier voice.
“But Ian,” Simon began.
“Shh,” Ian replied.
I wiggled my fingers, and then my toes, testing to see if everything still worked. I felt the bitter cold of what was probably the early morning sinking into my stiff joints, and I tasted the snow in my mouth. I was numb, everywhere. My eyes fluttered and then opened, the pupils shrinking due to the bright morning light.
“She’s alive!” exclaimed Simon.
Simon was a small boy with light blonde hair and blue eyes, too innocent to be living in such a deadly world as ours. Ian stood beside Simon as a tall man with light tan skin, devastatingly beautiful blue eyes with hints of gold in them, and scruffy brown hair.
“Get her the drink,” Ian instructed.
Simon dug his little hand into a large pack and pulled out a black canteen. He walked cautiously over to me and handed me the canteen. I attempted to sit up, but was barely successful. I was able to turn my body so that I was lying on my side, but I wasn’t able to raise my upper torso off of the ground. I grabbed the canteen and flicked the top off, taking a large gulp of the mixture within. Something that felt like liquid fire washed over my tongue and escaped down my throat.
I pulled the canteen away, coughing vigorously.
“What the hell is that?” I gasped.
“Fire whiskey,” laughed Ian as he knelt down to look at me. “Always gets a joint working when it’s been completely frozen over night.”
I did realize that it was easier to sit up now. I handed the canteen to Ian, but he shook his head.
“Nope, you’ll have to drink some more before we start heading home. I won’t be able to carry you the whole way,” Ian smiled.
I blushed.
“You have a name?” he asked.
I nodded.
“What is it?”
“Violet,” I answered.
“Violet, huh,” Ian smiled.
“How come you’re sleeping in the snow?” asked Simon innocently.
“I was being chased by one of the wolves. Got swept away by the river and fell 40ft down that waterfall. I must have drifted to shore before I drowned to death,” I explained.
“You’re lucky to be alive with the amount of blood you’ve lost. The doctor will have to fix you up,” Ian smiled.
“Doctor?” I asked. “There aren’t any doctors left, not since the invasion.”
“Naw, they’re just in hiding,” Ian smiled. “Don’t worry, we aren’t the enemy. We normal people have to stick together.”
“How do you know I’m normal?” I asked.
“Well, I don’t know; but Simon likes you so I figure you can be trusted,” Ian replied. “Plus you haven’t bit either of us yet.”
He extended his arm to help me up and I stood, wobbly at first. I downed some more the fire whiskey, forcing myself to swallow the hot drink. When Ian had thought that I’d had a sufficient amount, he took the canteen back and put it in the pack.
“So, Miss Violet, how old are you? Where did you come from? Do you have a home like we do?” Simon asked.
“I’m 19,” I answered. “I come from a far away place, and I haven’t had a home since the invasion.”
“Oh. Well now you do. You can stay with big brother and me; oh, and Auntie Denise and Auntie Tessa. You’ll love Mike and Jackson, they’re really funny. The others might be back from the snatching; I hope they brought back some chocolate,” Simon mused.
“And how old are you two?” I asked.
“I’m 6 and big brother is 20,” Simon answered.
“We’ve been on the run a lot, but we found the Rebellion a few months ago,” Ian explained.
“A rebellion?” I asked.
“Yes. We’re planning on fighting back against Prince Cedric,” Ian stated.
“And you think you can win?” I laughed. “Cedric is stronger than any of you can possibly fathom.”
“Oh, and how would you know?” asked Ian.
“I was supposed to be his 3rd wife,” I replied.
Ian pulled out a dagger and pressed it to my throat.
“Where’s your scar you invading little bastard!” growled Ian.
“I don’t have one,” I growled. “That’s why he sent the wolves after me!”
Ian stepped back.
“You survived the wolves?” Ian asked.
“I’m not as fragile as you might think,” I grumbled.
We walked in silence with Simon in between us. It was a rather easy walk, mostly flat ground, but it became harder when the fire whiskey began to wear off. My skin realized the freezing cold morning and I began to feel every rock that my bare foot walked over. My clothes were still slightly wet from the water and were badly ripped. My once descent dark blue trousers were ripped to the point of being considered an undergarment. The once, long-sleeved white shirt now was a sleeve-less v-neck with a shredded back and a bloody front.
“Well, I guess the wolves explain your – uh – interesting ensemble,” Ian muttered.
“Sorry I can’t look like a possible 3rd wife candidate for you,” I spat. “It’s not like I didn’t just drop 40ft and magically survive.”
“Big Brother, stop being so mean,” Simon interjected.
I muffled a laugh. We continued walking until it began to grow dark again. Simon talked for most of it, blabbing about random things and pointing out different small woodland creatures that we passed. When we came to a small clearing in the woods Ian stopped.
“We’ll set up camp here,” Ian stated.
Simon and Ian removed their packs.
“I’m going to look for some firewood,” Ian announced and disappeared into the forest.
The center of the clearing was snow covered, so we stayed beneath one of the larger trees where the ground was somewhat dry. Simon traced a circle in the dirt with his foot and brought the pacts over to the base of the tree.
“Miss Violet, you can sit down over here, just let me get the mats down,” Simon told me.
Simon set down two thin dark green mats and put a lumpy pillow down on one. He pulled out a few dark blue blankets and pulled out a few cooking supplies, putting them over by the circle he had traced.
“Sit down Miss Violet,” Simon smiled as he pointed to the mats.
I took a seat on the one without the pillow and grabbed one of the blankets to wrap it around my shivering body. They were a scratchy wool fabric, but they blocked most of the cold out.
“So, how long have you been on the run?” asked Simon.
“A few weeks, for practically all of it I was being chased by the wolves; I don’t think I ate nearly anything while I was on the run. Maybe a piece of bread every now and then,” I replied. “What about you?”
“I’ve been on the run for about 2 years. Started when I was four and my parents were taken. I didn’t really know how to snatch, so I didn’t eat very much for the first two weeks. When I attempted to snatch something, I met Ian inside the house. Big brother and I have been together ever since; he says that when I get older he’s gonna teach me how to fight,” Simon smiled.
“You were four? You had to snatch at four,” I gasped.
What has our world come to? Children having to fend for themselves? They shouldn’t have to worry about things like the war! They should only have to worry about what they want for lunch or what toy they want to play with. Not this…
“Yeah,” Simon smiled.
Ian returned carrying a large pile of wood. He made a small tee pee with the logs and put dried leaves in the center. He took a small lighter from his pocket and lit a small fire. Soon it was a descent fire that gave off a large amount of heat. I kept my feet close to the fire, waiting for them to defrost.
“Big Brother, I think we should make the oat meal. Miss Violet hasn’t eaten anything in a few weeks other than a slice of bread,” Simon blurted.
Ian turned to me.
“Really?” Ian asked.
I nodded.
“How is your stomach not growling like mad?” asked Ian.
“I’ve grown accustom to not eating. The first week was hell, but after that it got relatively easy,” I replied.
“You need food. Food is strength; no wonder you ended up getting caught in the current,” Ian sighed.
I shook off the insult and finger combed my hair. Quickly Ian filled a small pot with water and oats. He kept stirring until it was a lumpy, goopy mixture. He spooned small amounts into two bowls, and dumped the rest into a larger bowl. He gave me the larger bowl and Simon handed me a spoon.
“No, I’m fine. You guys take more,” I replied.
“No. Eat,” Ian grunted.
I sighed, taking the bowl in my hands and shoveled a large bite into my mouth. My stomach became aware of its hunger and accepted the oatmeal with pleasure. Pretty soon it coveted more and before I realized it, I had eaten the whole thing. My stomach gurgled for more, but I locked the hunger away once more. Simon had finished before I had, and I regretted eating it all and not offering some more to him. He was so small and so young. He needed the strength more then I did.
Ian finished not long after and Simon dumped the empty bowls into a white mesh bag.
“We’ll wash them when we get walking in the morning,” Ian told Simon.
Simon nodded and set the mesh bag aside. Simon walked back over to the mats were Ian and I sat. He shivered a little and I removed my blanket.
“Here,” I told him.
Ian had the other blanket and I didn’t want to hog their things. But Simon shook his head.
“No Miss Violet, you keep that,” Simon smiled.
“No, I’m fine, take it Simon,” I replied.
“How about we share it then,” Simon offered.
“Fine,” I replied.
Simon sat down in between my legs, resting head against my chest. I wrapped the blanket mostly around him and held him close the way a mother would.
It didn’t take long, but soon Simon was fast asleep. I smiled.
“He’s really taken a liking to you,” Ian smiled.
“I can’t believe that he had to even consider snatching at 4,” I sighed.
“Yeah, it’s a cruel world, isn’t it,” Ian replied.
I nodded.
“You look tired,” he mumbled.
He took the lumpy pillow out from behind him and handed it to me.
“No, you keep it,” I replied.
“Gosh, you’re so bent on making sure everyone else is ok. Why can’t you just be a tiny bit selfish?” he asked.
“Because I don’t deserve to be,” I replied.
“Oh, and why is that?” asked Ian.
“Because I had the best chance to try and kill Cedric and I took it for granted. This war could’ve been over and I was so selfish that I didn’t bother taking advantage of the position I was in,” I admitted.
Ian was silent and I stared at the flames of the dwindling fire.
“You can’t blame yourself for the world’s problems. No one would’ve even considered the other option if they were in that position,” Ian replied. “You don’t owe anyone, so start looking out for yourself because that’s the one thing you’ll always have.”
I pushed the pillow back to Ian.
“Take it. You’re caring too much about me, start being selfish yourself,” I muttered.
Ian sighed.
“How about this, I’ll take the pillow, but I’ll be your pillow,” Ian replied.
I thought for a minute.
“Fine, but I can’t move because I don’t want to wake up Simon,” I murmured.
“That kid sleeps like a log, don’t worry about him,” Ian replied.
He scooted closer to me and laid down, I wrapped my arms around Simon to make sure he wouldn’t move, and situated my head on Ian’s chest. Ian put the second blanket on top of both of us and I was too tired to protest. The body heat of both Simon and Ian made me even warmer. The warmth slowly coaxed me into a cradle of comfort that I hadn’t had in a long time.
Slowly I fell into a much-needed sleep.




I awoke to the absence of a weight on my chest. My eyes shot open when I realized Simon wasn’t lying on me anymore. It was early morning and a bitter chill had sunk into my bones. Simon was asleep on the mat beside me while Ian and I shared the second mat. Simon was still bundled in the blanket I had given him while Ian kept his arms around me while we shared the second blanket. Somehow Ian had wedged the pillow between his chest and my head. Both of them were still sleeping.
I slipped my hands out from Ian’s grip and removed the pillow. I lightly lifted Simon’s head and placed the pillow beneath it. I put my head back down against Ian and closed my eyes.
Hypocrite.
I didn’t entirely fall back into a deep sleep, but it was sleep none the less. When I awoke for the second time, the pillow was once again beneath my head and both blankets were wrapped around me. I opened my eyes and saw that Ian and Simon were no where to be seen. Sitting up, I looked around the camp. The fire was out and the packs were behind the mats, leaning against the tree trunk. The cooking supplies were packed up and the mesh bag was gone. There was a scraggly note in the dirt.
Gone to river. Washing dishes. Whiskey is in bag. Drink up.
I yawned and stretched my arms above my head. I heard my joints crack and I turned to grab the canteen out of the bag. I swallowed two substantial gulps and felt the uncomfortable burning sensation. Putting the canteen back in the bag, I stood up, stretching again, and began to fold the blankets. Soon Simon ran to camp, followed by Ian.
“Ha! I beat you big brother!” laughed Simon.
“Very good Simon,” huffed Ian with a smile. “Maybe when we get home I’ll start teaching you to fight.”
“No!” I gasped.
They both looked at me.
“What?” Simon asked.
“You can’t teach a 6-year-old to fight! He shouldn’t even be involved in any of this!” I exclaimed.
Ian smiled.
“He won’t be aloud on a snatching trip until he’s at least 12. Don’t worry; he’ll only need it for emergencies,” Ian assured.
I sighed.
I was surprised at my outburst. It had only taken me one night to become full-on maternal towards Simon and he wasn’t even my child; I was too young to even have a child!
We started walking once everything was packed up and Simon had scattered the logs. Ian led us north and we began an uphill climb. This was the worst part because there were more rocks on the ground and my tender feet could feel every single one. At one time it became nearly unbearable and that was when I sliced my foot on a sharp rock.
I yelped when it happened and I tumbled onto the ground. Simon and Ian had been walking in front of me and they turned around at my outburst. Ian knelt down beside me.
“You ok?” he asked.
I was biting my lower lip, trying to bite out the pain, but water was escaping my eyes because it hurt so damn bad. I shook my head.
“Damn, you cut your foot pretty bad,” Ian exclaimed.
He took hold of my foot gently.
“Simon, can you get the water out of my pack,” Ian asked.
Simon nodded, pulling out another canteen, this one a dark green. He handed it to Ian who then dumped some of the freezing cold water onto my foot to clean the cut. I yelped as the cold water hit my skin. Ian ripped off the bottom of his shirt and bandaged my foot with it.
“There you go,” Ian smiled.
Simon put the water back in the pack and put the pack on his back. Suddenly Ian picked me up and began walking again.
“What are you doing!” I exclaimed. “I can walk!”
“I don’t want your foot to become infected,” Ian replied. “Would you rather have no foot or have me carry you.”
I was silently contemplating both things.
“Don’t answer that,” Ian muttered. “You’d probably choose no foot.”
I sighed, feeling guilty because I was slightly enjoying not having to walk. I leaned my head against Ian’s shoulder and closed my eyes.
“Is she asleep big brother?” Simon’s voice echoed in my ears.
“I’m not sure Simon; but all of her running is probably catching up to her,” Ian muttered.
“I’m glad we found her,” Simon exclaimed. “She’s big sister.”
Ian laughed.
“You’re very odd sometimes Simon,” Ian muttered.
After that both Simon and Ian were quiet, either that or I had fallen asleep. When I opened my eyes I saw a bright light and a tall man dressed in a white lab coat. I screamed loudly. The man put his hand over my mouth and I ripped at it with my hands, kicking my legs vigorously. I pushed the doctor away and sprang across the room. At that moment Ian came running into the hospital room.
“You!” I yelled angrily. “You betrayer! You gave me over to them! Where is it? Where’s my scar? YOU BASTARD! I TRUSTED YOU!”
Ian grabbed a hold of me and I screamed, kicking and thrashing.
“You might as well have sucked me dry you Vampire!” I yelled.
“Violet, shut up!” Ian growled. “You’re not a vampire you idiot!”
I closed my mouth and looked up at him.
“Then why the hell am I in a hospital?” I asked.
“Your not, you’re in a cave. This is Will, our society’s doctor. He patched up that nasty cut in your side and healed your foot. Vampires aren’t the only ones who got a hold of a water elementalist,” Ian explained.
“Though you do have scars that I am very sure that you are aware of,” Will smiled.
Will was a tall man with short blonde hair, laugh lines, and weary-looking grey eyes.
I narrowed my eyes at him, not sure whether I was upset that he had seen them, or that the places where they were, were exposed.
“Huh?” Ian asked.
“Cedric knew I was human. He took advantage of that and I wasn’t aloud to object. I was sent away when one of his advisors found out,” I muttered.
Ian still had a confused look on his face. I lifted the front of my shirt only so far so that my stomach was visible. All across my stomach were half crescent scars that were a faded pink. I put my shirt back down and looked at Ian, waiting for a reaction.
“He took a liking to biting me, but not sucking anything more then a tester,” I murmured.
Ian looked at me, horrified.
“It was either a tester or sucking me dry. I kind of wanted to stay alive at that point,” I replied.
“Here, you’ll want to change out of your ripped clothes,” Will said, handing me a simple, violet dress with a swoop-neck, and long sleeves.
I took the dress in my hand, walked behind the dressing curtain in the far corner of the room, and quickly changed. When I came out from behind the dressing screen, carrying my ragged clothes in my hands, the expression on Ian’s face changed. It went from the horrified look of finding out a small snippet of my past, to a look of interest at a supposed change in my appearance.
“Here are some shoes, so you don’t cut your foot again,” Will said, handing me a pair of black work boots.
I slipped my feet inside them and laced them as tight as they would go. Even with my yanking and pulling, they were still a little big; but they did their job.
“Mirror, brush, hair band: you’ll want to keep your hair back,” Will told me as he pointed to three things on a small table.
I grabbed the mirror in my hand and looked at my reflection. My face was pale, paler then I remembered. My chocolate brown eyes had small hints of silver in them and a light ring of violet around the pupils. The dark brown locks of my hair were knotted and messy; I took the liberty of brushing them vigorously with the brush until they were smooth. I pulled it back and tied it with the hair band.
“Ian, you should take her to get some food. She needs a lot of nutrition,” Will muttered.
Ian nodded and I followed him out of the hospital and into a long hallway. It was an arched hallway made out of rock.
“Are there Earth Elementalists here?” I asked.
“Yes, two. They helped create most of the cave system,” Ian replied.
The caverns were lit by small balls of fire floating up near the roof. Ian looked different without his heavy coat and gloves. Now he wore a short-sleeve black shirt and dark trousers. He too, had work boots much like mine, and his muscles were prominently visible without the bulk of extra clothing. I sped my pace so that I was walking beside him and suddenly his hand bumped into mine. I jumped back, feeling a hot sensation where our skin had touched.
“What?” Ian asked, turning around to look at me.
I looked down at my hand and there were no marks of being burned.
“Violet, what’s the matter?” Ian asked.
“Fire. Do you control Fire?” I asked, looking up at him.
Ian shook his head.
“Nope. I’m a spin-off of Air. I can use a wind-blade, but I can’t just randomly control air. What about you?” Ian asked.
I looked down at my hand.
“Spin-off of fire; I control lightning,” I muttered.
“Really? Lighting, wow, that’s cool,” Ian smiled. “Simon can use water; but he can’t heal.”
“Oh,” I muttered.
“Come on, it’ll be gone if we don’t hurry,” Ian smiled.
He took hold of my hand and I felt the burning sensation on my hand again. I yanked it away.
“What?” Ian asked.
“Nothing, I’ll follow,” I murmured, looking down at my hand.
Ian shrugged and trudged onward as I ambled behind him. Soon we made it to a large open room with tall ceilings where fire circulated on the ceiling and in the middle of small round tables made of rock with rock benches placed around them. There were a few counters against the walls with shelves above and below them storing cooking things and food.
I took a seat at a table with Simon while Ian got food. He brought back three bowls and placed two of them in front of me along with a roll of bread and a large glass of milk.
“Eat up,” he instructed.
“But-” I began in protest.
Simon picked up my roll and shoved it into my open mouth.
“Eat up,” Simon smiled.
There were three people sitting across from me. One was a petite redhead girl with bright green eyes, an aging man with black hair streaked with silver and warm grey eyes, and a young boy a little older than Simon with black hair and green eyes.
“Auntie Tessa, Mike, Jackson, this is Big Sister Violet,” Simon announced.
“Hello, I’m Jackson, but you can call me Jack,” smiled the aging man.
“Just call me Tes,” muttered Tessa.
“Mike is the short version,” smiled Mike.
“Just call me Violet,” I smiled in return after I had swallowed a bite of the bread roll.
I reluctantly ate everything that was placed in front of me and my stomach gurgled happily. Ian held most of the conversation with the others and I silently listened. Tes and Jack were actually married, but Tes was 7 years younger at the age of 29. Jack had explained that his silverish hair was from his mother’s side that got grey hair in their late 30’s. Mike and Simon were talking about different things and I didn’t pay much attention to them. The only time I spoke were the few times I was spoken to.
“So, Violet, where did you come from? What’s your story?” asked Tes.
“Well. I grew up north of here, just outside the capital. I was born to a mostly fire and air family, so I got the ability to control lightning. I mostly use it like an arrow because I don’t have a hilt to make it a blade. When the invasion started I wasn’t quick enough to run. I was taken to Cedric’s castle about a year ago and ended up being the next in line to be his wife. I would’ve been the third. I didn’t do it because I liked him or anything, but it was either that or me dying; so I chose life.
“Cedric took a liking to biting me, he wouldn’t transform me, but he’d take a blood taster which isn’t the most comfortable thing I’ve ever endured. When one of his advisors realized I was a human, Cedric sent the wolves after me; that was a few months ago and I’ve been on the run ever since,” I replied, telling most of my story.
“You’re the third wife?” asked Jack.
I nodded.
“Wow. That trumps just about all of our escape stories. Where are your scars?” asked Tes.
“Stomach and a few are on my lower back and behind my shoulder blades. He liked to stay away from the neck. Didn’t want to suck me dry; well not yet at least,” I muttered.
Ian’s hand had balled into a fist on the table.
“And I thought I couldn’t hate him anymore than I did before,” Ian muttered.
“That gives all of us a new reason to hate him,” growled Jack.
I sighed and looked down at Simon. Simon had quieted down to hear the story and now that I saw his face, I regretted saying it at all. Horror was ripe in Simon’s big blue innocent eyes and he looked on the verge of tears.
“Big sister,” he muttered, his voice cracking.
I hugged Simon close.
“Don’t worry Simon, I’m fine,” I whispered.
“But he was so, evil,” Simon spoke into my stomach.
“That’s just how some people are,” I whispered.
“Are you crying Simon?” Ian asked.
“No,” Simon lied.
“Real men don’t cry. Do you want to be a warrior, a fighter?” Ian asked.
Simon looked up, water trails running down his face. He nodded.
“I want to be a great fighter like you big brother,” Simon gasped.
“Well then you’re going to have to start by not crying. Men don’t cry,” Ian instructed.
“What?” I asked with half a laugh. “If a man can’t cry then he’s a blubbering idiot who doesn’t know how to feel emotion and care about anything.”
“Huh?” Simon asked, looking up at me.
“A man who can’t feel emotions the way he’s meant to isn’t a man at all; he’s just an immature child,” I grumbled.
Ian looked at me with surprise.
“And I’m guessing that Cedric was a crier,” Ian growled.
“Nope! He’s an immature child who doesn’t cry. He just feels anger and hatred towards everything except a good looking female who will give him the time of day,” I said, a little louder then I should have.
Suddenly I felt electrical currents flowing through my hair, the way they normally did when my anger was rising. Ian had set a glass of water in front of me that I had barely touched. I thrust my hand into it and the electric current faded until it was finally gone. I exhaled, glad that I didn’t blow anything up.
“What are you doing?” Simon asked as I removed my hand.
“If my anger level gets to high then I conduct lightning. I’d rather not blow everyone up. Water gets rid of it,” I explained.
“Oh,” Simon muttered.
“You look tired,” Ian muttered, changing the subject.
Now that I realized it, I was a little tired.
“Come on, I’ll show you to the room,” Ian smiled.
I released Simon from my grasp and stood up. I followed Ian out of the kitchen/eating area and he led me down another long cavern. Soon we passed by many archways with different things blocking the entrances. We stopped at the one with an old white dressing screen in front of it. Ian moved the screen aside and led me into the small room that was lit by a dim fire ball near the ceiling. The room was simple.
It was small with rock shelves taking up the left wall. On the shelves were different possessions like clothes and shoes. In the center of the room was a large thick mattress with a thick brown comforter on it and two lumpy pillows.
“This is the room. It’s small, but comfortable,” Ian smiled.
I was looking up at the ceiling, focusing my eyes on the fireball, trying to figure out how it continuously burned. Suddenly I felt a trail of fire on my cheek. I jumped back, my back hitting the wall of the room.
“Why do you always flinch whenever I touch you?” Ian asked.
He walked over to me and kept a good hold on my arm so that I couldn’t move. With his free hand he lightly caressed my cheek and I closed my eyes, trying to move my skin away from his.
“What?” he asked, moving his hand away.
“Whenever you touch me you leave a trail of fire,” I muttered, looking at him in the eyes.
The corners of his mouth formed into a small smile. His face became very close and suddenly he closed his eyes, forcing our lips to touch. My body seemed to become engulfed in the tingling sensation of burning. At first I tried to pull away, but then I realized that I liked it. I pulled myself closer to Ian, wrapping my arms around his neck as he wrapped his around my waist. Our lips moved in sync and I felt the burning everywhere. Suddenly I pulled away, opening my eyes and looking into Ian’s, dumbfounded.
I raised my hand to my mouth and looked back at him. He still held me with his hands around my waist. I was gasping for air, we both were; our chests rising and deflating in sync. Before I could realize it, tears were streaming down my face and Ian’s once happy expression had changed to confusion and guilt.
“What?” he asked.


“What?” Cedric murmured, looking at me covetously.
“You took a lot,” I muttered, using the wall for support.
“Sorry,” he smiled.
He kissed my neck gently, a teasing gesture that he liked to do often. His skin brushed against mine and I felt the usual chill.
“Wait,” I whispered.
“What?” Cedric asked, looking at me with his icy blue eyes, a ring of crimson around the pupil.
“Can you just give me a second to regain my strength?” I asked.
“Violet,” Cedric sighed.
“Please,” I asked, making my eyes look innocent.
Cedric smiled.
“Fine,” Cedric muttered.
He walked out onto his balcony and I took a seat on the red armchair, waiting for my head to stop throbbing.
What am I putting myself through?
You’re keeping yourself alive.


“Violet,” Ian whispered, putting his hand against my cheek.
I blinked.
“What?” I asked.
“You ok?” asked Ian.
I began to feel the burning in my cheek and I pulled away.
“I’m just tired,” I mumbled.
Ian kissed my forehead and walked over to the screen door.
“Sleep well,” he smiled, and then shut the screen door.
The room became a little bit darker without the light flooding in from the hallway. I untied my shoes and slipped my feet out. I stood quickly, finding the bed easily and laid down beneath the covers. I rested my head on the lumpy pillow and closed my eyes.